the black ribbon

I used to say going into a relationship now
is like setting up a time bomb for my heart.

I let many people down with those words
Some didn't take the hit so well.

Those hurt by those words should know
Your feedback hurts me too.

Try and understand
It was never intentional.

Ask yourself
is it a curse? or a blessing in disguise?

You held me close and tell me
everything will be alright.

You sing me songs and tell me
the story of your life.

You look into my eyes and tell me
don't look back at the past.

You open my eyes and tell me
the possibilities of the future.

You sweep my hair and tell me
you really do love me.

You hold my hand and tell me
you want it someday.

You are the wonderful surprise
that found a way to work around
that time bomb because,
distance can never stand between
you and me.

Run for Cover

We took a random drive to my grandparents' cemetery in Meru, Klang. All four of us [aunt & siblings] had to use plastic bags as hats because it was raining and I got a big plastic bag so I had to hold it up with a hair pin. Looks so weird. But we all had a good laugh at it. =)

Pleasant and peaceful day. During the drive home, my aunt asked why am I suddenly so gentle when I speak. Guess it had to do with the fact that all worries and pressure are lifted after talking to my grandparents.

Meet the Family

Meet the Parents 1: Tuesday, 10 November 2009

His family had tickets to watch 2012 at Pyramid so he asked me to join his younger sister and him for dinner. Since Pyramid is so near for me..I said Okie. After sending his sister to MPH to meet his mom, we walked around a lil bit..and BAM! His family is right in front of us.

Bf: My family!
Me: WAT? where?!
Bf: Dad! *All turn around*
Me: ....Hi Uncle, I'm Angeline *shook hands* *feel like wanna bury my face in the ground* *Turn to his mom* Hi Auntie *shook hands* *wave at his elder sister*.

Seriously, I wanted to drop dead right there and then. I had no preparation whatsoever!! And the whole process was a blur..I was so stunned.


Meet the Parents 2: Saturday, 14 November 2009.

My aunt, my mum, my siblings, my cousin May + Jayden and my ah yi met my bf at Neway karaoke. Yes, my family is cool like that. My mum was like.."chill, no need to worry, no need to be so formal" hahaha! We sang, we ate, we chatted in between. All's good I guess. hehe.. =)

..sailing along..

Google Map

Today, I want to go back to last last week when I went to Mantin, Negeri Sembilan with my aunt and siblings to check out the land at that area. I have no idea where is that so GoogleMap, here we come =D

I didn't drive because, 1) We are taking the Waja so I'm not used to it and 2) I have to look at the map and navigate my aunt.


When we got there, the road looked so different..8 years ago? LOL. My aunt gave my dad a call [he's in China] and reported the land development. After she told him my bf say there's no future in this area, my dad said "forget it". So, job done. =)

frustration

OMG! I wanna throw my laptop in their face for hammering the walls at 9am!! I was going to bed at 7am and just as I was about to doze off, my mum sms me to check my mails regarding credit transfer. I got out of bed obediently and wait for the download and whilst I'm there, I might as well enrol into classes. I managed to enrol 2 out f 4 so I decided to crawl back into bed.

Mr. Sunshine is shining right on my pillow so my face is totally in the sun. I toss and turn until I can finally sleep then my uncle start banging God-knows-what at 9 in the morning!! I wanna cry. I'm so so sleepy but urgh..!!! I can't sleep.

I just switched to Digi so I have no credit yet to make any calls or return any smses so I can't complain to my bf or leave the house. Can I scream at him to keep what he's doing till 11am? At least lemme FALL ASLEEP first.

p.s: He's drilling now. I'm out of the house and into the gym.

OUT!

what's a mirror for?

Not for you to check your own reflection but rather,
reflect on yourself.

Taking things for granted.
The car that's always available for you,
The room that's always vacant for you,
The love that is showered upon you,
The person that is always there to tolerate and care for you.

Today, I watched MJ.
I was never a big fan cause I think he look distorted,
When I watch his videos,
I'll only look at his legs cause I like how he trembles.

The song Man in the Mirror,
I heard it a million times but when MJ explain it,
It suddenly struck me..
The true meaning of the song.

WE NEED TO MAKE THE CHANGE
BY LOOKING INWARD OF OURSELVES.

Growing up..I was never a fan of Michael Jackson. I like his dance moves for sure but other than that, I'm not too interested on what kid he touched or how much it cost to maintain Neverland Ranch. His death made no much impact for me except that I have to read hundreds of blog posts dedicated to him and see how people make money from this news.

When the movie MJ: This Is It was released I obviously did not go all excited since the premiere was on my birthday I couldn't have watch it anyway although I had the chance to. I finally watch it on saturday with my bf since he say we should get over it. Haha..or else, there'll always be a question mark if we should have watched the final footage of MJ.

As I watch the movie, I was flabbergasted by how his voice sounded different [in a good way] and how polite he is when he ask for things his way. Firm but polite. As I watch him talk about and sing "Man in the Mirror", thoughts entered my mind and I was so frustrated to think that I didn't know what it meant before..

knowledge is NOT power

I know too much
I've seen too many things I shouldn't have
But, I can't stop looking at it
It's bringing so many thoughts into my mind

Could he be lying?
Is this a phase?
Am I too blinded for my own good?
Will history repeat itself?

Then again, I'm being unreasonable
because at that time, he haven't met me
at that time, he wasn't single
and at that time, it's not like I wasn't doing the same thing myself

So I can't blame him
But I can't keep thinking about it
Sucks to be in my head right now
I need to see him pronto

So not in the mood for property hunting on roads I am not familiar with =.=

All I need is You

The night we had a misunderstanding
You give me room to breath
You let me say what I need
Your patience is amazing

I found all I need in you.

Tears start to roll as I tell you my story
You listen with your loving eyes
I never knew the look of love
Until I saw it staring back at me

I truly found all I need in you.

Turning point

27th was the day he officially asked to be that jigsaw piece who completes the puzzle i've been working on. The "I Love You" started his speech and the ring sealed the sweet deal. :)

.:the missing piece:.

The birthday dinner at Italiannies was a wonderful surprise with him showing up and most of the people I love was there. Ser Li and gang couldn't make it but I'm seeing them on Monday for belated birthday lunch/dinner.

Tomorrow is the usual poker night..I'm being such a gambler. Credits to bad influence.

the last daze of my teenage years

Friday was poker night with Ishmael, Azri and their poker buddies along with Veronica and Cynthia. After that, we went for 3 hours of pool and breakfast.!! Someone didn't get his ayam penyet and we only got Mcd's for breakfast. It's 10am and Curve was very deserted so we just walked around leaving Azri and Shaqeel to their beauty sleep at McD's table.

I got home at 1pm and waited for my aunt to get home so we can get our nails done. I dozed off on the sofa while waiting for my aunt to get home.. I got 30 mins and am ready for my manicure + pedicure session. Me got butterflies on my nails =D Now, we'll see how long it'll last on my nails before I peel it off.

When I got home, it's already 4.20pm and I gotta be ready by 4.45pm. My nails were still delicate so dressing up was helluva test-of-patience. We collected my cake on the way to Klang and started setting the place up as soon as we got there.


My brother made me the hairband with the words "Birthday Girl" on it and willingly went shopping with me the day before to get my party stuff. And my sister sang me two songs from her idol, Taylor Swift at the party. My siblings ladies + gentlemen. Loved them to bits although they don't know it.

the trio!
catherine, angie & may

with my grandma

my cake =D

the clan (:

Every relative that could be there was there. Those who couldn't make it had good reason not to be. XD it was the best partie my mum had thrown me and I truly appreciate the lengths my family went thru for this day. My dad is still in China but I know he loves me and he will enjoy this partie to the max thanks to karaoke if he was here. haha..but there will also be more laughter with him around.

Cecilia's going away partie

Cecilia is leaving for University of Queensland OR University of Auckland next year February. Same time as me and hopefully to the same uni as me. Please dump Queensland and come Auckland with me.. This post is just gonna have photos since nothing much happened except we had to wait like 15 mins for a table cause there was 10 of us there. We ate at Fong Lye Tea House..some chinese restaurant.

focus of the day = CECILIA!!

We took forever to order our food..actually just Shean since I already decided what I wanna eat whilst waiting for the table. Since I ordered second and everybody's food kinda arrived, I won't let Xin Rou eat and make her take picture with me. See the reluctance? I kid.

Xin Rou & mE

My food arrived so they are off the hook while I'm busy admiring the complexity of my dish. Haha..I love how space-hogging it is. I ordered stir-fry beef with minced meat sauce rice? Something along those line and the fire goes off by itself. Me thinks it's cool. XD

We saw Miss Winnee, Jocelyn and two more HELP lecturers at the craft shop in Gardens and Shean quickly ran out of the shop to tell the others. I just walked past them and tried to eavesdrop. haha..but I have poor memory so I forgot what they were chatting about. I like Winnee's new hairstyle.

yong jie, cecilia, me, boon chin, shean, sim ee & xin rou

all in =]

Cecilia, have a good time enjoying your holidays from now till February. Have a safe trip and hopefully we can meet in Auckland. Best of luck in all your future endeavours and forget me not ;)

social lyfe?

Got my social life back as soon as my psychology friends finished their mid-terms. Must have been a tough two weeks for them but it wasn't easy for me rotting at home doing nothing. Ok, I'm bragging and I can feel you guys going "stop rubbing it in my face".

So, on tuesday...I picked Melanie up from KPD A and picked up two hitchhikers and dropped them at mainblock on the way. Lunch was nice and cosy at House + Co. We crashed at Eric's place while waiting for dinner time to come... Ser and Ju joined us for dinner and we went Italiannies, 1U. I couldn't resist my filet mignon so I had my fix of juicy 70% cooked beef on top of shitake mushrooms, french beans and potato wedges.

Mel mel & me :)

Today, I had a long shopping list given by my mum and I plan to hop on it on my own as soon as I woke up. As luck would have it, my aunt managed to persuade me to go shopping with her. But, I managed to get 1/3 of the shopping list done today. We reach pyramid at about 2.45pm and she was saying how we need to time ourself and be on our way home by 4.45pm. My bro and I was like...Okie. Tadah!! 5pm and she is in Marks & Spencer fitting room trying on 20 garments in 2 different sizes each. =.= So, we took pictures!

My bro and his lifted one-eyebrow

After I saw that, I decided to try..again. So, my kinda failed lifted one-eyebrow is the last picture below.

one, three, sNap.